Three is a pretty big deal.

So. Three. Tres. Trois.

One. Two. Three. As in Bob and I, plus a baby, will make three.

Or three positive pregnancy tests means we'll be the THREE GUY'S instead of two shortly... OH MY GOD.

So yeah. Guess who's pregnant?! After knowing for 4 whole hours, I realize how nearly impossible it will be for me to keep this quiet for 8 more weeks. If my math is correct, I'm only four weeks pregnant right now. I have made my first doctors appointment, August 15, which will be around the 8 week mark.

Today has been a day of crazy emotions. Every single time I start to think about the fact that I'm pregnant, I start crying. I'm growing a baby. Holy crap. This is the single most important thing I have ever done in my life. I never thought I would feel this way. I never thought I would be this excited or nervous or ready. I never thought I'd be so emotional about this tiny human that is forming inside me. But then again, I've never been pregnant before. I never knew it would be like this.

Now comes the task of a) keeping myself as healthy as possible and b) picking out a way to tell everyone our good news (in 8 weeks). HOLY BALLS!!!!!!!!! I'M PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!

*(remember.... these posts were imported after the fact!)*

Party of one.

So I can't remember if this has been discussed or not...

Being the wife of a pilot is an often lonely life. Just like my birthday, Easter, and Memorial Day, I'll be alone on July 4. In years past, you'd find me hanging at some body of water, with a planned visit later to visit a very special birthday girl... my MP. This year, I'll be working. And will come home to an empty house.

Bob and I have been married for a little over a year, and I'm still not used to this lifestyle. Just when I think I am, I throw myself a pity party and regress a smidge. It doesn't help that Bob has been on an irregular schedule for the last 2 months. His training is over and now he's back at the airline with an extremely full schedule.

Sometimes I go back and forth between whether or not I want to be working right now. If I didn't have a job, I could go home and hang with the family, with no urgency (besides Bob and Hank) to come home to. I could take off to where ever (with unemployed BFF, Jess) and not feel guilty about leaving my patients. I fly off to meet Bob for long overnights in parts unknown.

Then I remember how much I adore my job. I think about how much it makes my life meaningful and and important. The things I do at work make a difference in my seniors lives. I think about how miserable I was last summer, unemployed and depressed, just sitting at home.


So tomorrow when you're enjoying family, friends, water, sand, hot dogs, and fireworks, think of me. At work. Making a difference, keeping my patients active and healthy. And then coming home for a pity party. Boo hoo.